Happy New Year!

Come New Year's and naive people all around the world think that things will actually change the next day they wake up; new resolutions, new prayers blah blah blah. Does no one realize change needs to come from within. If we don't change ourselves for the better things around us probably never will either. Why save your prayers for one eve? don't we need these 24/7 365?

Way to start a year for me though. I have exams from Monday and I find myself absolutely incapable of concentrating on what I'm doing because of anxiety. Even compartmentalization of the brain doesn't seem to work very well here. You know that feeling when something doesn't feel right and you have this mad urge to set it right, right away! ugh. It drives you crazy but you realize you can't do everything on your own. You can't change mindsets, people and circumstances all the time; sometimes you just need to accept things and come to terms with where you stand. So I say a little prayer...

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can 

And wisdom to know the difference

I hope this Year everyone finds the strength to make the right decisions, be  a better person, take care of those around, understand their priorities and invest this year as opposed to just spending it. Happy New Year!

Cheers!

Lessons

1.Don't place the burden of your expectations with those too weak to carry it.
2.The memory retains what it regards.
3.Self pity is the last degree of madness.
4.It's good to know where you stand; saves you the trouble of pursuing the wrong direction.
5.Someone who doesn't know what's wrong shouldn't be expected to make it right.
6.All those you care about the most, have the power to hurt you the most too; some will also have the tendency to prove this.
7.When you give too much importance to someone in your life, you tend to lose your value in theirs.
8.Stop being an ingrate. Look around; You'll find people with bigger problems and better capability to handle them.

Redundancy

Some relationships, like those with parents, siblings and important/close friends, take precedence over others. We love these people more, want to go an extra mile for them, stand up for them and reason for them. In short we're willing to bid for them unconditionally. It feels incredibly good to be an important part of their lives but what happens when you become redundant?

They will probably be too cold to realize, too weak to make a confession (and by default amends), too insensitive to care or too shameless to make an apology. It may not affect them, because you've long taken the back-seat in their lives; for you, however, coming to terms with reality might be more difficult than you thought. However difficult it might be, wouldn't you RATHER accept reality sooner than later? you can't hold back someone who doesn't, wouldn't and couldn't care. Save what's left your self-esteem and make a dignified withdrawal. No, you don't need to show the other person that you're hurt. Broadcasting feelings to those who don't care might get you sympathy but it'll never get you respect.

They say bad things happen for a reason?
But no wise words gon' stop the bleeding :)
                                                         -Breakeven, The script

...Later, I think about things I could've said :P

Sometimes it's hard to decide whether to shut up or say it, suppress or show it, forget or avenge it. Because we're almost, always confused whether to do all of the former or the latter, we almost always end up not saying, showing or avenging and hence later we think about things we could've said, shown or avenged :P 

Yes, it's sad when people disappoint by doing things you did not expect them to do, but still worse is when people disappoint by not doing things that you, at the very least, expected them to do. What should you do? Impulse would tell you to settle scores right away. Rationale would tell you that it's probably not worth it. Although rationale, at first thought, might appear to be self-sacrificing it actually isn't. Wouldn't you rather exalt your conscience and gratify your self esteem than sound petty or unreasonable to someone who couldn't (and more importantly, didn't) stop twice to think about it. Wouldn't you rather let your ego take the back seat when being calm can be so much better; if nothing else it might just shame one into realization, if not then you know where you stand. So, what should you do? Do what makes you happy but more importantly do what relieves you of "later thinking about things that you could've said" :)

Rambling on

1.Apple pie is amazing. 

2.Friends who make  apple pie are amazing.

2. Should we always mean what we say?

4.It's hard to convince people in denial.

5. Do we really want what we're chasing or are we just trying to be part of some big race, trying to defeat our       insecurities?

6.Kis ne kaha tha pepsi pe 5 rupay kam kar do? :S  

7.Sometimes, even sap can be better than sickly sweet, pretentious mortals.

8.I skipped number three.

9.Value the ones who love you and care for you. If it weren't for them you'd probably be sitting somewhere doing pot.

10.I feel blessed.