On Being Honest

Something that i saw on facebook :P

It's funny :P

When Happiness is living a million miles away

Emotional dependence is the sweetest and worst of its kind. Being emotionally dependent on someone can make us really really happy or make us really really sad. You know what I find most interesting? When we become emotionally dependent on children. There's nothing they can do for us physically, yet, they seem to be a single most powerful source of joy. You can't help being attached to children. When you raise a child from a feeble  neonate to a healthy vivacious infant, teach her how to crawl, then teach her how to walk, watch her take her first step, hear her say her first word...the love of this person for the child is selfless. Nothing is expected in return; because the greatest return is in the smile that envelops the child's face and the incessant laughter that can light up the most melancholy heart. 

Departing with this all-in-one-package-of-happiness is very difficult; painful even. You're torn apart between being happy and being sad; happy for the child, sad for yourself. My little ball of happiness sits a million miles away from me right now but the fact that I get to see her smiling face everyday, thanks to Skype, is a blessing. You never how much MORE something/someone means to you and has the power to influence your life and moods until you depart with it. 

Cheers!

I Just Realized

With reference to an earlier post titled 'Lessons', I just realized something;
"7.When you give too much importance to someone in your life, you tend to lose your value in theirs."
Not quite. It's when you give too much importance in your life to someone who DOESN'T DESERVE it, that you lose your value in theirs.
Without this correction what an outrageously nasty injustice this predicament would be to all those wonderful people around us!

What a song!

Respite, Salvation and Refuge

Facebook statuses are a phenomenon. All those who do not have better alternatives to vent their feelings vent them on facebook. Lyrics, quotes, movie quotes, self-proclaimed philosophical reflections (the "lmao" kind) etc etc. Put one of these up and BAM...You have seventy something likes in like a day! A couple of comments, "so truee", "what happened" "aww" by shweety, smoochie, prince, king and such likes...whereby the author of  the status feigns a "want-of-privacy" and delights himself in conceited joy. Apart from needing a psychologist who can counsel them on how they can stabilize themselves and while at it grow a pair (which should go without saying) these people seriously need to set their priorities right. Sometimes pride needs to take the back seat and more important things must take its place. Either toughen up to fate or trace it back to the root cause. Subtle Facebook messages are a) not so subtle and b) very useless. FACEBOOK WOULDN'T HELP. If you can't face your feelings and DO something about them, stop spamming the walls of hundreds who wouldn't care twice.

I really needed to get that out of  my system, everytime i'm really bogged down and really need to vent my feelings, I'd rather go through my contact list to look for a friend who will listen and genuinely cares. Very few people will actually feel your misery the way you do; don't broadcast your feelings on facebook. They're worth more than that. Remember if somebody needed a Facebook status to be knocked into realization, he/she probably isn't worth it either. Worth the time and energy you expend on coming up with a status and posting it. No; not even that much. And if somebody really is worth it, then let go of your ego...It's like a trade off; decide which is more important to you.

This friend of mine today in naivete said 'I-Don't-Know' in reply to some query of mine..Woah. I don't know why, but it unleashed a repressed lava inside of me. 'I-Don't-Know' should die. My rage wasn't directed at the poor soul, she just got caught in the crossfire. She very obediently decided to nod at each and every one of my deliberations (for lack of a better word) until the inclemency placated. I think my fury had been ignited after receiving an 'I-Don't-Know' reply from someone (something to that effect) when that was the LAST thing I wanted to hear then. Some other painful examples of 'I don't know' replies include, but aren't limited to:
"Hey, do you know what's included in the syllabus?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, do you know the solution of this question?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, so what does the plan look like?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, everything alright?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, what's wrong?" -- "I don't know?"
"Hey, do you know where my things are kept?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, when's mom going to be back home?" -- "I don't know"
"Hey, what's your name?" -- "I don't know"
AHA! Douche.

I've realized that so far, I haven't said a thing apparently related to the title of this post: Respite, Salvation and Refuge. There are times when you really REALLY wish all three of these things came in a combo, delivered at your doorstep; just a call away. But then only the rich would enjoy this luxury too. Life isn't all that cruel. In order to acquire access to some of the greatest 'naimats' you must 'earn' them.
No better Source to turn to than the Creator himself. I must prove myself worthy of respite, salvation and refuge...to the Being worthy of granting these...No amount of rant and rave can decontaminate the bitter heart...And Divine intervention is much needed rather sought (I, for one, believe it's always needed. We'd wreak much more havoc in our lives than we already do, had it not been for that).
It's naive of us to turn to humans when we need these things. Very VERY few humans can provide the emotional support, when you need to sail through a rough patch. Value the ones who do. Even those who don't. They give you all the more reason to be happy at your good fortune of having great people around you. I can't pause my life, clutch my heart and weep because two bad things happened in a day. You've gotta move on. Yeah you can't get over things but you must still move on. Try fixing things instead of pitying yourself. If it's worth a fighting chance, then fight for it you must, not weep. Staying frozen in a time-frame is an incredibly stupid self-imposed punishment.

My eyes hurt as I type that last sentence and I fight to keep them open. I have an exam in a day and zero preparation. A miracle can save me now (as always)... a friend of mine says and I quote "I don't believe in miracles-I rely on them."

Cheers!