Don't dilemmas exist at every junction of our everyday life? From very trivial to very grave matters, it's these darned dilemmas that tear us apart into two. I mean have you never thought about trivial things like whether or not you should go to place, party, event, XYZ or whether the black dress will be more appropriate or the white...trivial female woes I tell you (*dramatic sigh*)! Look around you though, in fact no wait! pause. rewind. play. There! Now look within you, and that's exactly where you must begin from; always. Look within you and you'll realize that there's more to you as a person to worry about than where to go and what to wear. Khair, a self-righteous sermon wasn't the point of this narration, and out of habit I'm getting carried away again. This is probably why you shouldn't blog as an emotional ventilator. Shit. Doing it again. Ok promise, ab nahin (I'll try!). So, I was talking about the dilemmas, that exist within us, the things that have the power to shred our peace of mind to a million tiny pieces. One such dilemma occurs when you're surrounded by two-faced people; the saddest and most hurtful part is that...you don't know which face to slap first. No really. If these people can consume your peace of mind bit by bit without any genuine efforts of redemption (I don't care for remorse; so you're remorseful, big deal! If it couldn't do any good to me or you then you probably got it wrong somewhere). I sound like a really menacing person right now, so those who're scandalized are warned to read no further. Like I was saying, if someone couldn't have the spine or decency to constrict herself within the realms of human civility, then I am not going to play Jesus.... I'm not going to quietly take all the bullshit and make it look like a huge self sacrifice on my part (no blasphemy intended)... I do not believe in such emotional sacrifices. It's so much easier to see oneself as being victimized than the victimizer. However, this actually cuts both ways. Takes two to tango. Having said that, it's not having done something hypocritical or dishonest that I'm bashing; it's getting away with something so cheap and stooping this fucking low over and over again that REALLY ticks me off. Think about it; when someone's blatantly lying to your face (and doesn't give a tinker's damn about it) when you know all the while that it's just a load of cod and wallop, you shouldn't be expected to be the most rational or amiable person. So in Marilyn Monroe's words, if you have two faces, at least make one of them pretty.
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